All these kids can't wait to go back, see their friends, have the freedoms that college allows them. I do want to go back, but on my own terms. I'm not gonna wait for people to say they've missed me, or can't wait to hang out. It's different. I'm different. So for my sake I have to believe that what I'm searching for, or what I'm doing at school is worth it. I think i'm afraid of having fun because I don't know who will actually invite me to hang out. I don't want to be the pity party and yet at the same time I'm sick of being the assertive person, the initiator. Please someone else take initiative. I know it can be scary. I'm searching for my balence. I'm searching for the realms of the circles that my wings will grace.
My list of things I need to bring back vs things I WANT to bring back
A new ipod, for the purposes of a larger capacity
ben & jerrys cookie dough ice cream
supplies for mix cd making and distribution
A winter jacket
Ice skates
gloves
and many more
shit, i have to pack.
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